My Lenten Offering

Lately, things have been quite interesting(so it seems..hehe). And being that its the Lenten season, things have been extra interesting. Lent means alot to me, not because im a sunday school teacher and as one I have to portray a good example for the kids, but this time of the year is somewhat special.

Firstly, being that not everyone knows what is Lent makes it even precious to those who observe it. To us, Lent is a holy week to remember Christ's sufferings, His trials before His passion and much more. Every year, God gives us this opportunity to experience Christ's 40 days of temptation. And though we only carry the silver of His cross, its the least we can do.

So, this year being that it was Lent, I decided to spend this time wisely. I think God was being pretty humorous too, considering the challenges I had to face through lately. The times when I had to play dumb and act sane while "the world" would have another outburst on me, the trying times when I had to forgive and forget and then do it all over again. Thinking it over, a smile forms on my face, God is pretty humorous..(thx???)

Other than that, Im glad I got the chance to join the youths on their outreach events. It was a real eye-opener into a world much different to my own. I visited an orphanage@single mothers@old folk home in Jinjang with the youths in my area. The home run by a 25 year old man, consists of 30 orphans, 2 single moms together with their infants and a senior citizen. What amazed me was the condition in which they lived in. I still wonder how all of them could fit in that house. It really made me realise how fortunate I am. Being that I am really drawn to kids, so it was hard for me to say goodbye to them.

I also got the chance to visit a shelter for abused girls in Ampang. I guess I really enjoyed my time with them. They were such bubbly, sweet, beautiful girls. It was so great that we all got along so well. And not to mention the fun we had with fabric paint..hehe. I somehow feel like I didnt do much at all, visiting all this places but rather they gave me something to take back with me. They gave me their joy even through the pain, poverty and trials that they may face. And I think a joy like that gives strengh to persevere through the toughest times. Neways....

HAPPY EASTER!!!mwahhss
My classroom boredoms...

What ifs..

What if I talked a little longer,
What if I spoke a little sooner,
..Gazed a little deeper,
Would I find what i need...

What if I could turn back time,
What if nothing changed since,
What if fear didnt hold me back,
Would it change the way things are...

Why cant i forget,
Why cant this go away,
Why does it kill me so much,
Why cant I LET GO!

And what if not knowing wont stop hurting,
What if things have changed,
What if I refuse to believe that,
What if what I need is nothing but a selfish want...
Im only fooling myself....

Update! Update! Update!!!!

Cant believe its already April! Seems like I've gone through extremely mundane days to intensely busy hours in just a few weeks. Not surprising though is the condition of this blog...dead as ever! Practically had to push myself to find time to update it. Seriously, blogging can be difficult at times!

The last few weeks have been pretty hectic, from assignments, outings with friends to planning a surprise b'day party! I guess I shouldnt have complained about having mundane weeks..hehe. Lately, my assignments have been pilling up, one after the other. Best thing is all of the assignments are due around the same time. I wonder who thought of planning it as such :(.

While all the assignments were underway, planning for Shaine's bday was also in progress from getting her *coughs* extra special present to getting all the guys to join in. Somehow through all the mess, we even had time go to Mist, KL. Wonder how that even worked out..hehe. Must have been my 1st time being outside more than inside the place..(sry, u guys).

Through it all, i guess everything turned out well. The bday was great, with great food, great company, and great memories to remember (not forgetting lots of pictures!), assignments all done in time and most of all, the week has been exciting. Owh ya, one last thing..SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING!!!!

All of us at Mist


Shaine's 21st bday!


The whole gang all together...

Seven Pounds anyone??

Blogging is such a task at times!! hehe. Just been finding it really hard to find something worth writing about. I guess everyone has those weeks where everything seems extremely mundane and down right boring. Before you know it, you've slacked off a week and your blog looks a little sadder..hehe.

Well, lately I decided to watch seven pounds with my friend, seeing that I was free and had nothing better to do. We got into this small cinema theather and I actuali thought this was kinda cool, as if we were some exclusive group who was watchin the movie. Plus, I'm sure the sound system would have been better..(I guess??)hehe.

Then halfway through the movie I hear people singing along, rather unsoundly..hehe..and it came from the seat next to me...MY FREN!!!lol. In my heart, I didnt care whether my friend wanted to sing or not, I just hoped no one would take notice of it..hehe. Then, before I knew it, a girl seating on my left also started singing..I'm like, you gotta be kidding me!!!..come on....

But that wasnt the end of it. I guess the worst was the fact that the people beside me were muttering general facts about the movie.

Person A: Whats that animal called again?? Person B: Owhh, its....obor-obor??
Person A: Owh, ryte ryte..
Person B: Its really dangerous. It can electrocute someone to death!!
Me: (Turns and looks at them for a moment with an emotionless face)

And that was how it was almost throughout the movie. Not that I dont enjoy knowing random facts...but I guess I WANNA WATCH THE MOVIE!!!!..And btw the animal is called a jelly fish!

Other than that, the movie was fairly unpredictable. It isnt your typically movie, with an expected ending. I like movies which actually allow us viewers to guess whats' actually going on. The ending part was particularly sad and considering most of the people in the cinema were move to tears, I guess they were touched too.

On the brighter side of things...

Aside from all the rants, things have been fairly predictable. College as expected is....BORING!!! Nothing has changed a bit, even after 4 months. Lectures are still boring enough to put you to sleep, subjects are getting even more theoretical and friends are still as random..lol. I guess i still have to get use to going to college again and not forgetting, put up with the Taylors admin..:(

Other than that, everything is still the same. Still have work on Saturdays and church on Sundays. Its funny now thinking it over, I practically spend my weekends with kids...50 of them to be exact. And let me tell you, they are a handful!!! I still wonder how I manage to survive each time??

And though I always come out of it feeling voiceless, drained and totally worn out, its all worthwhile at the end of the day. Just having one of them say thank you or leave totally excited about class makes all the difference. But dats not the case all the time though..hehe..Guess I gotta be thankful for what I get??

My random rants...

You know I'm starting to think that being nice is a curse on its own. There you are tryin to be 'nice' and instead of getting that in return, people think its ok to take advantage of it. Not like its never happened before but I seriously think people should really think about their actions atleast once in awhile.

It is seriously farking annoying when people do that. So pisses me off especially when people look down or disregard you because of the way you are. Well I would think thats bladdy double standards!!! So what if im small, or quiet, or that i seem nice....doesnt mean you can just treat me like that.

Im no robot, I cant just take everything you say or do and spit it out without being affected from it. Worst still, is when you talk to them and they have this " I told you so" smile on their faces. I wish you would just be there for me instead of judging me!! Or maybe im imagining things...Ahhh, I dont really know what to think.

Gives You Hell....

Finally, some privacy to write. At last everyone is out at the same time, or not i'll have my mum snooping around me, sis glancing every now and then (normal busy-body family)..:(. The weekend has been fairly busy for me with work, church, sunday school and such. Kinda felt like a zombie by the end of sunday..hehe.

I dunno why but "Gives You Hell" by AAR is still kinda stuck in my head. Well I guess it's because it kept playing over and over on the radio, which is kinda weird. On Saturday I was totally in a pissed off mood and funny enough everytime I got into the car, the song played..(God, what are you tryin to say??..lol)

The good thing is I kinda like the song and I guess in a way it kinda relaxed me cause its such a carefree song. Listening to it made me think, "Ahh, fark everything", or something like that..and yes, I do curse..its a normalcy in most people.

Well, after the hectic weekend all I can think off is starting college again...I seriously don't know what to expect. Hope its all good???