Feels like I lost a friend...

Hours pass and I'm wondering,
How much longer can I bear this?,
For once we were friends,
But now nothing at all.

I reminisce the times we had,
Far too often that it kills me even more,
Where did it go?,
And why did it have to...

My mind is filled with questions,
All of which; unanswered,
How did things become so complicated?,
How did it become so tainted..

Is it me who is to be blamed?
Blame me then,
For my pride cannot withstand this agony,
But who ever gave you the right to judge me,
Your words linger on deep down,
And though I'll never admit it,
I don't know if I can ever look at you in the same way.

Thinking it over,
Did I ever mean that much to you?
Or was I the foolish one,
Naive from the start.

You're the reason I now hold back,
Any new friendships I frown upon,
Any such closeness I quickly disattach,
For one time seems one too many,
How much more can the heart take?

You said being closer hurts,
Being strangers hurts even more,
For that is all we are now,
And I cant help it,
Because it feels like I just lost a friend.


I miss her...

I'm sorry...

Listening to: Zee Avi - Someone you used to know

Please try to understand.

I wish I could change this.
I wish I could make this right again.
I'm sorry.

My random scribbles...

Holidays gave me alot of free time so I had fun entertaining myself with random artwork or rather my doodles..lol.

Sorry for the typo

Don't really like this one...shows how much I suck drawing human figures..LOL

Decided to experiment with colour!

Luv the effect on this one..all thx to photoshop!

Work in progress...

Two weeks...

It's amazing how two weeks can pass so fast without me even noticing it. I know I haven't updated my blog in awhile, frankly I've been so lazy. Holidays have been great so far, the occasional outings, Sunway Lagoon trip, even staying at home has been bliss aside from getting bored now and then. I almost don't want this holidays to end (almost)..hehe.

By the way, I finally got the Manchester United tickets and merchandise promised and will be meeting Bryan Robson a former MU midfielder tonight! Sadly, I'm also gonna see three wonderful friends off today..how ironic. Jacqkie, Carmen and Cindy will be leaving to Adelaide, I'm gonna miss them alot. Deep down I'm so envious (take me along, plss...) lol. I'm so fortunate to have known you three and will absolutely not say goodbye. In no time we will see each other again and have many more gatherings, laughs and smiles. Always take care, lots of luv!!!

Jacqkie: I'm so gonna miss your cheerful company. Thanks for being a listening ear especially when I needed someone to hear me out.

Carmen: I'm gonna miss your smile and your expressions. Now, I'm gonna be the only underweight person for the rest to tease??

Cindy: Thanks for your company during the many ADV major classes we had to take. I think we were the most quietest ones in class..hehe.

The bag of goodies!!!

"Now how am I gonna sneak the cam in?LOL"

Another familiar pic missing one familiar face..:(

Its not always about you....

Everthing is not always about you.
Sometimes you just have to accept it just as it is.
Instead of just lashing out at others.
And just maybe try to be a little more sensitive about who
you're hurting in the process.
Grow up, its about time.

Things have changed.
We both know it all too well.
So dont act oblivious to it.

Im no robot, I cant just change to your demand.
The fact that you want me to be someone Im not, is sickening.
I just can't.
I won't.
I won't. I won't...