The fool is me...

I'm sorry i didnt realise,
Too oblivious, ignorant, foolish to see the truth,
Any such thought I turned it down,
For I thought our friendship was strong;
Lasting...

I was too blind to notice the many instances,
The many "coincidences",
I made up excuses, reasons,
Telling myself lies,
Knowing deep down I was wrong.

You didnt want this friendship,
Instead you pretended,
Pretended to care,
I'm sorry for this burden you had to carry around,
I'm sorry for being so naive,
Not seeing the truth until it hit me right in the face.

You don't have to pretend anymore,
Have your "friendship" anyway you want,
Find me when you are in need,
Seek me when you are troubled,
See me when only neccesary,
For I am nothing but a tool,
Fully utilise me by all means.

I'll always be a friend,
For friendship could never differ,
Its TRUE nature; unconditional and unceasing,
Never could I stoop down to your level,
Never could I be anything less.

And you,
You dont have to pretend anymore,
You don't have to fake it anymore,
If this is what you think "friendship" is,
Then you can have it back,
Theres' so much I can take,
But just not this.

I longed for friendship,
But ironically I don't anymore,
You can keep it.
Sadly, I'm the fool in this one...