Rebellious me??

I guess I've been feeling utterly rebellious this past few days. You could say recent events are to be blamed for my unsettled emotions. I don't know how long this will last or what circumstances I will have to face at the end of this. I just feel this intense apathetic-ness (don't think its even a word) for anything, including my assignments which is going to be a problem as the due date draws near :s.

A blog post I read not too long ago comes to mind. I especially related to it as it made a lot of sense to me. What's the point in what we do? Does it add up to anything at the end of the day? Some questions come to mind...

• Why do we aim for paper qualifications when we know nothing will ever prepare us for the real life?
• Why do we care so much about a certain someone when we know the feeling isnt mutual?
• Why do we try so hard to be nice when people just take you for granted in the end?
• What's the point of smilling when you know its totally fake?
• What's the point of hoping when you know its never gonna work out?
• What's the point of achieving perfection when nothing you do is ever good enough?
• What's the point of you believing in me, when I don't believe in myself?

Then comes the most important question; What's the point of living? Well I guess that's a pretty hard question to answer. That's one answer I'm still searching for and probably still will to the day I die. Its kinda ironic in a way, being that one of the reasons we live is to find a reason to live for?

Its funny the things you come up with when angry...:)