How desperate can you get???

I don't mean to sound discriminating but I seriously do not get guys(well most) these days.
How desperate can you get?, like seriously.
I don't know if I should feel angry or just feel sorry for you.
Just wondering, does shame even exist in your vocab???

Twenty-one...

Listening to: Aqualung - Something To Believe In

What does it really mean to be twenty one?
Whats' the fuss about the big 21 that some how I don't seem to get?
Do we really enter 'adulthood' or is that just an idea our parents try to instill in us to grow up?

So what does being twenty one mean?
Freedom? Late curfews? Endless partying?
Or is that just an excuse to party, drink and get wasted...
Then look back and think "Goosh, that was a hell of a night".

I wonder how this misconception ever came about,
How an age could be associated with adulthood,
And how we celebrate it as if we've reached a pinacle point in our lifes,
When in truth, were just embracing ourselves for more responsibility.

So heres' to being twenty one,
Heres' to everything you've ever said to me,
Heres' to the ways you've made me feel,
Heres' to the times you made me feel sorry for myself,
And the times i promised myself i'll never let you do that again.

Heres' to the lies, curses and bad intentions,
we never said out loud,
Heres' to silence,
The burden I carry effortlessly.

Heres' to trust,
And the many times we never did,
And forever never will,
Heres' to hope,
One I've held on far too long,
And gladly let go of...

Heres' to love,
The mystical being we never see,
But suppositly its like the wind,
Do we ever feel it?
Or is it just our thoughts getting the better of us.

Heres' to brokeness,
How we'll never trully admit it,
Yet, we live our lifes in its presence,
Fooling ourselves to think we're whole.

So what does twenty one really mean to me,
Nothing, nothing at all.

Yes, I know shes' disporportionate. Most of my artwork are too.

Done using watercolour pencils & paint.

" Turn out the light
And what are you left with?
Open up my hands
And find out they're empty."
Aqualung

500 days of Summer!!!

Read post at your own risk. You have been warned.

A while ago, I remember looking down a list of movies and spotting this very movie title. At that time the only thing that attracted my attention was the lead actor, Joseph Gordon-Levitt. I always admired his acting and his choice of movies to star in, (which are mostly indie films) which is why I decided to keep this movie in mind. Eventually, I saw the movie due to a friend's recommendation and it exceeded my expectations.

Personally, I don't care much for romance flicks because they always have a similar happily-ever-after plot which is fairly predictable. This movie some how had a different approach to love, a more genuine approach. This made the movie shockingly relatable to me which is why I'm so hooked on it. God knows the countless times I've done the same things Summer has(though none done with bad intentions in mind). I guess you could say Summer's idea of love is a mirror image of mine. Shes' very pessimistic when it comes to love and even questions its very existence.

I also loved the fact that the comedic approach was subtle and yet it seem to fit into everyday situations unlike most hollywood movies.

Here's a short clip thats' cute but yet funny.

And ofcourse, Joseph's acting was great. This movie actually showcased many of his talents, some I didnt even know he had. What I always love about Joe(other then his acting) is his many expressions, especially his smiles; his boyish smile, the smile he gives off when shy, his sarcastic smile, his seductive smile..the list just goes on (in short: i love guys with infectious smiles). Goosh, how he has grown. I love the fact that he hasnt lost his boyish charm and yet has grown into a man.

Joseph Gordon Levitt through the years...

The music used in the film is also another plus to the movie. I loved it so much that I had to download the whole album. I think my family must be complaining behind my back because I keep listening to the same damn songs over and over again..hehe.

Though, I've watched the movie twice already, I had to watch it again when I heard it was out in the cinema. It was worth the while, I must say (well, except for the censored parts...WTF). And...I still can't get enough of the show!!! I AM SO GONNA GET THE DVD!!!:)

Heres' a little something I bumped across..:p

A little last-minute sketch

Done with acrylic paint + loads of water..:)

Still a work in progress

PS: sorry the post is longer than usual. In all fairness, I did warn you!

Rebellious me??

I guess I've been feeling utterly rebellious this past few days. You could say recent events are to be blamed for my unsettled emotions. I don't know how long this will last or what circumstances I will have to face at the end of this. I just feel this intense apathetic-ness (don't think its even a word) for anything, including my assignments which is going to be a problem as the due date draws near :s.

A blog post I read not too long ago comes to mind. I especially related to it as it made a lot of sense to me. What's the point in what we do? Does it add up to anything at the end of the day? Some questions come to mind...

• Why do we aim for paper qualifications when we know nothing will ever prepare us for the real life?
• Why do we care so much about a certain someone when we know the feeling isnt mutual?
• Why do we try so hard to be nice when people just take you for granted in the end?
• What's the point of smilling when you know its totally fake?
• What's the point of hoping when you know its never gonna work out?
• What's the point of achieving perfection when nothing you do is ever good enough?
• What's the point of you believing in me, when I don't believe in myself?

Then comes the most important question; What's the point of living? Well I guess that's a pretty hard question to answer. That's one answer I'm still searching for and probably still will to the day I die. Its kinda ironic in a way, being that one of the reasons we live is to find a reason to live for?

Its funny the things you come up with when angry...:)

I forgive you...

Listening to: Strays Don't Sleep - For blue skies

This ones' for you. I forgive you.

I'll never say goodbye...

Call me stubborn, but i'll never say goodbye. We only part to meet again...

Updates! Finally!

The semester has officially kicked in. I'm finally feeling the busyness and rush of assignments, work, sunday school and not forgetting my recently-acquired hobby..hehe. Recently, I decided to support my friends and join a camp organised by them. Turns out it was unexpectedly awesome.

Fr. Danny is by far one of the best speakers I've ever had the honour of listening to, other then MJ ofcoz..hehe. I doubt any of us actually fell asleep during the sessions even though we were clearly exhausted. Still cant believe he managed to con the others into thinking im Hawaiian..LOL(seriously ppl, i look so so Asian).

The other fellow participants were great too. We had such fun bonding and playing very, very silly games(dip-hair-into-bucket-&-squeeze-into-bowl)..hehe. We even had Christian clubbing (Alan's smart idea) which was kinda freaky as the "club" was literally pitch dark. All in all, it was a good escape from our normal mundane routines. It kinda opened my mind to a few things I find essentially important and of which I hope I will follow closely to *fingers crossed*.

Aside from the camp & retreat, we celebrated Mummy's 21st bday..hehe. We had a mini school reunion, which was as awesome as the party itself. I just regret not taking pics with everyone (yes, I know its strange that I said that). As expected, the b'day girl got really high in the end, which led to us coming home at 5.30am? Lol( we still luv you..hehe). Heres' a lil photo update as well, enjoy??:)

My very random artwork, purely to test out my new acrylic paint!

Mandy's cool birthday invites

I love my "rock star"

A little overdued project that I helped work on.

Still waiting for more photo uploads!*hints*