These thoughts of mine...

Why I wonder sometimes...
What is it that you see in me?
Am I even that worthy to have you see me in that light?
I who feel so small, so insignificant, so insecure...
And yet you see me as strong-willed, independent, unique..
What do you see in every gaze?
I wonder if you see the same image I sometimes dread staring at?

The story of her...

Lately, my blog has been the last thing on my mind. Its not that I've lost interest in it, but rather I cant seem to ever finish a blog post. Theres' either too much to tell, too little, or too complicated to put down in words. I guess you could say my minds' in a mess. So, instead of writing anyting that might mess your mind up too, heres' a little project I worked on.

The unfinished product

Finally done!

PS: Thankx & credit goes to willowing for her tutorials!!!

Call me a student, one last time?

Final sem began last week signalling the start of the college environment yet again, assignments and the one thing i dread, the end of my term as a student. I never really thought this day would come so soon, and honestly I didnt want it to. Though many might feel otherwise but I love being a student. I love the privileges of being a student; not having to worry about money all that much, staying up late just to finish assignments, attending lectures, exams (I kinda miss them..LOL) and best still the privileges of my student card!!!lol.

I never really thought I'll be graduating at 21, its just so soon. It still seems sureal. I used to think I would still be stuck studying till i reach 24 (guess I should have opted for medicine instead..LOL). I guess it scares me knowing that by the end of this year, I would need to start looking around for a job or plan to further my studies. As of now, both options seem very hazy. I just hope when the time comes, I'll know exactly what to do.

College as expected, is very much dull and boring. I guess as last sem students thats all we can expect after spending a fair bit of time in the same institution. College environment seems so uninviting and needless to say subjects are far worse. I guess you cant stay a student forever, you have to move on and hope for greener pastures. Well, thats what I hope for...

Feels like I lost a friend...

Hours pass and I'm wondering,
How much longer can I bear this?,
For once we were friends,
But now nothing at all.

I reminisce the times we had,
Far too often that it kills me even more,
Where did it go?,
And why did it have to...

My mind is filled with questions,
All of which; unanswered,
How did things become so complicated?,
How did it become so tainted..

Is it me who is to be blamed?
Blame me then,
For my pride cannot withstand this agony,
But who ever gave you the right to judge me,
Your words linger on deep down,
And though I'll never admit it,
I don't know if I can ever look at you in the same way.

Thinking it over,
Did I ever mean that much to you?
Or was I the foolish one,
Naive from the start.

You're the reason I now hold back,
Any new friendships I frown upon,
Any such closeness I quickly disattach,
For one time seems one too many,
How much more can the heart take?

You said being closer hurts,
Being strangers hurts even more,
For that is all we are now,
And I cant help it,
Because it feels like I just lost a friend.


I miss her...

I'm sorry...

Listening to: Zee Avi - Someone you used to know

Please try to understand.

I wish I could change this.
I wish I could make this right again.
I'm sorry.

My random scribbles...

Holidays gave me alot of free time so I had fun entertaining myself with random artwork or rather my doodles..lol.

Sorry for the typo

Don't really like this one...shows how much I suck drawing human figures..LOL

Decided to experiment with colour!

Luv the effect on this one..all thx to photoshop!

Work in progress...

Two weeks...

It's amazing how two weeks can pass so fast without me even noticing it. I know I haven't updated my blog in awhile, frankly I've been so lazy. Holidays have been great so far, the occasional outings, Sunway Lagoon trip, even staying at home has been bliss aside from getting bored now and then. I almost don't want this holidays to end (almost)..hehe.

By the way, I finally got the Manchester United tickets and merchandise promised and will be meeting Bryan Robson a former MU midfielder tonight! Sadly, I'm also gonna see three wonderful friends off today..how ironic. Jacqkie, Carmen and Cindy will be leaving to Adelaide, I'm gonna miss them alot. Deep down I'm so envious (take me along, plss...) lol. I'm so fortunate to have known you three and will absolutely not say goodbye. In no time we will see each other again and have many more gatherings, laughs and smiles. Always take care, lots of luv!!!

Jacqkie: I'm so gonna miss your cheerful company. Thanks for being a listening ear especially when I needed someone to hear me out.

Carmen: I'm gonna miss your smile and your expressions. Now, I'm gonna be the only underweight person for the rest to tease??

Cindy: Thanks for your company during the many ADV major classes we had to take. I think we were the most quietest ones in class..hehe.

The bag of goodies!!!

"Now how am I gonna sneak the cam in?LOL"

Another familiar pic missing one familiar face..:(