'Lie to self'?

Two public holidays, 25 staff members and 15 days equals 3 weeks of my life as an intern. I'd like to think those 15 days have passed by effortlessly. I'd like to say I've enjoyed every bit of it but then I would be lying. I wish I could say things are starting to look up but honestly I'm scared to say even that. Good days at work never do stay long. They vanish as soon as a smile shows on my face. So what am I left to do? Persevere...Promise myself days will pass and the next day would be a better one. Or in the words of Jerrie, 'lie to self'...LOL

Christmas draws near and I pray I have renewed hope to receive Christ this year. As much as I want to look forward to this festive season, I just don't feel all that cheery nor excited. I hate myself for that. I should be passing the Christmas cheer around and await His coming and yet this is the time when my spirit is at a low. Lets hope this phase passes soon.

One thing interning has done to me is miss my friends owh so much! I miss Sundays with my girls, Fridays with the RYM peeps and not forgetting spending late nights chatting with my close friends. I just miss the social life I had, even tho it wasnt much to begin with.

I miss having time to myself; being alone at home. Working means having a dozen people who don't necessarily know you or even like you for that matter, around you. I must admit I feel most alone at work even with the dozen around me. Im an outsider to them as they are strangers to me. Having them speak in a language I cant converse in doesn't help either. I just hope I persevere long enough to see that light at the end of the tunnel.