If I was a puppet held by thin, invisible strings, I wonder who my master would be. I refuse to believe it is You. You wouldn't leave me troubled, nor make life seem so unmanagable till I feel pushed to the edge. You wouldnt forsake me...
God, where am I? Where am I heading to? I feel so disconnected, so unbound like gravity has no effect on me and I'm floating endlessly. I search for stability within me but all I'm left with are these unanswered questions.
Everthing feels like a blurr; days, months, faces, places. I'm merely a stranger looking into a life thats' not mine. Sleepless nights are to be blamed for this I guess (I hope...).
How am I to be there for you when I'm in a mess myself? How am I to wear this smile when all I feel is the opposite? How am I suppose to be the shoulder you cry on when I'm aching on the inside? I've never been much of a friend. Never had the right words to say nor knew how to comfort you if ever you reached out for me. Neither am I calm and collected as how I would seem. On the inside, I'm panicked stricken and doubtful.. I'm a walking catastrophe....
Do you have enough love for the both of us?
2 comments:
dont we all go thru the days of when we feel so lost and directionless? God has bigger plans for us than any of us can imagine.. much as we dont understand, all will reveal in time.. =) at least that is what ive learnt where God and life is concerned =P
hang on, im sure your mere presence is enough, heck, its better than not being there at all right? you're doing great! *hugs*
Thxx dear, had a rough day at work and got carried away..hiah, i noe He has a plan, just wish i knew what it was! Neway, can't wait to hang out with you soon...*huggies*
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