I finally passed up my huge 3,500 word final assignment. I don't know what I wrote or if I even answered the question. I just stopped thinking after reaching the 2,000 marker. Somehow I thought I would feel relieved to finally pass it up, be done with classes and finally leave college for good...but I have to agree with Jacqkie, I wasn't and I still don't know why. I don't know why I feel this unsettleness like I'm in this huge mess just like how my room has been this past few weeks. I wonder if cleaning it up would help..LOL.
Maybe I'm just overthinking like how I always do now with internship close by. I'm forced to think about my future, whether to work or pursue further studies. Owh how I wish I could run away from all this, just escape my future for a while but I know I would be foolish to do so. Once again, I feel so lost. I wish things were easier, choices were easier to make and my judgement wouldnt be so clouded with doubt. I feel like I'm on this pedestal with expectations and hopes of others riding on my shoulders. I just wish everyone would stop expecting anything from me and just accept the choices i make. Sigh...
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